A fair question.
I would be lying if I said I did not carry my fair share of demons as ballast.

I was once an insecure,socially retarded psychological and mental mess of a boy and my chief crutch,my greatest ego boost was to knock off as much "trim" as possible,hence the wackos I was attracted to.On the plus side experience with them gave me a sort of false crutch to hold up my sagging ego,in addition I was a good talker,great looking and I could appear very sincere and caring.
Eventually experience,emotional and financial security,in addition to increasing health problems dictated otherwise.But some would still hold that only the externals have changed.

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