I have not even hit 1000 posts! Lol. When I joined mercedesshop.com in 1999 I was 26 yrs old. I had just celebrated my 1st wedding anny. My wife and I had just bought our first new house! I would sit on this site until the wee hrs of the morning on weekends drinking beer waiting on dial up on my new Emachine desktop. It was awesome! I came here and joined after I bought my first MB. It was a 84 300dt I bought from the original owner who was a retired delta pilot. I love pilots cars so well kept

I watched Bill Wood and Donnie (Benzmac) build their beautiful shop MB autowerks that I was able to visit 1 time. That was a really fun time. I wish all active members here could have seen what an awesome effort that was. I have not seen benzmac here in a long time. BUT I only stop here once a month now. The scenery has changed and I have gotten old. Plus if you don't drive a benz anymore I don't need any tech help. But I love to come sift thru the classifieds and read about politics ( I will never reply). It's amazing to see how far this forum has come and how many members it has! Congrats peach Parts!

I think I have owned about 10 or so old benzs since joining and have gained a lot of knowledge about those cars from coming here. A big shout out to all who have helped me over the years! I still love this place

Today is my 44th bday. I am still married 18+ yrs now. I got a 15 yr old girl and 10 yr old boy. Live in my 4 the house now. 5 jobs later. Which btw I love my job. I work for a turbocharger design house now. So awesome! Oh and I gave up beer at age 40. Health reasons. Lol I am also visiting here from a 4g iPad. I traded the Emachine in for it.

Anyway just wanted to share. I am VW crazy right now. Put the wife in a minivan. BUT I am looking for a ML. My daughter is going to be 16 and I want her in a benz! I say an e320 but she wants a SUV Oh well maybe a 2002 ml500. That would be the perfect combo. What do you guys think? I think an ml is kinda ugly but I know it's safe. Have a good one folks! Here's to many more yrs of peachparting!

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Current stable......
17' Rogue SV 70k
11’ Saab 9-5 NG 94k
10’ e550 4matic 185k

sold
02' e320 210k
00' e430 167k
01' e320 171k (regret sale)
91' 300d 2.5t 300k (sold to ecoofidaho)
79' 240d 177k (old yellow my avatar)
87' 300d 169k (junk but fast)
85' 300tdt 261k (RBM parts delivery)
85' 300dt 68k (one owner cream puff)
82' 240d 250k
84' 300dt 198k (sold to diesel don)
91' 190e 2.3 61k
88' 260e 140k

Don't make the mistake i made.My daughter started going with a creep at 16.He's a drug addict,refused to work and support my daughter after they married,had 3 kids.He got her into drugs,and she died from staph infection from dirty needle.
I should have when she was 16 said **** career,home,and vehicle payments.Then moved my family away from that area.If i had my daughter would be alive today.screw a ML,make sure creeps are not in her life.

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i lost her febuary 2015.i have been so lost,and angry.I never go anywhere now,life is no fun.I used to burn 20 gals a week in gas,now less than 20 a month.I won't even go outside,afraid a neighbor will talk about her.I stay at the computer watching sci fi movies,wishing nuclear war would start,or asteroid would hit the earth.

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1999 w140, quit voting to old, and to old to fight, a god damned veteran

I'm very sorry for your loss.

But don't beat yourself up over it, No matter how hard you try you cannot keep your kids from having friends you don't approve of.

I am no psychologist but it sounds like it might help to see a counselor. Talking to a professional counselor might be just what you need to feel better.

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[SIGPIC] Diesel loving autocrossing grandpa Architect. 08 Dodge 3/4 ton with Cummins & six speed; I have had about 35 benzes. I have a 39 Studebaker Coupe Express pickup in which I have had installed a 617 turbo and a five speed manual.[SIGPIC]

..I also have a 427 Cobra replica with an aluminum chassis.

I put my kids in 240 and 300d's when they were young. They had a couple of accidents in which I was very glad they were not in a Chevette (or something equally flimsey).

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[SIGPIC] Diesel loving autocrossing grandpa Architect. 08 Dodge 3/4 ton with Cummins & six speed; I have had about 35 benzes. I have a 39 Studebaker Coupe Express pickup in which I have had installed a 617 turbo and a five speed manual.[SIGPIC]

..I also have a 427 Cobra replica with an aluminum chassis.

Hey t,you know I've been to the VA,i take paxil,and wellbutrin.But i don't like stronger meds.I don't like to feel drugged.Its just something i have to go thru,I'm at the age I'm waiting for death anyways.There's nothing left to start over doing.

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I got my daughter an 84 SD when she was 17. She's 22 and still driving it. It's going strong. It had a new engine when I bought it. Paint was peeling badly. Did a rattle can paint job on the horizontal surfaces this past summer with OE color matched cans and it came out surprisingly well.

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1977 300d 70k--sold 08
1985 300TD 185k+
1984 307d 126k--sold 8/03
1985 409d 65k--sold 06
1984 300SD 315k--daughter's car
1979 300SD 122k--sold 2/11
1999 Fuso FG Expedition Camper
1993 GMC Sierra 6.5 TD 4x4
1982 Bluebird Wanderlodge CAT 3208--Sold 2/13

Not a big fan of drug therapy for existential problems myself. Talk therapy with a good therapist is a better option in my view. Nothing will or should remove your grief but it is possible to think about it differently.

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1977 300d 70k--sold 08
1985 300TD 185k+
1984 307d 126k--sold 8/03
1985 409d 65k--sold 06
1984 300SD 315k--daughter's car
1979 300SD 122k--sold 2/11
1999 Fuso FG Expedition Camper
1993 GMC Sierra 6.5 TD 4x4
1982 Bluebird Wanderlodge CAT 3208--Sold 2/13

I wouldn't say I am waiting for death, but I don't fear it. I just don't want to suffer!

It would seem to me that getting out and getting involved in a service club like the Optomists or doing volunteer work might help keep your mind occupied.

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[SIGPIC] Diesel loving autocrossing grandpa Architect. 08 Dodge 3/4 ton with Cummins & six speed; I have had about 35 benzes. I have a 39 Studebaker Coupe Express pickup in which I have had installed a 617 turbo and a five speed manual.[SIGPIC]

..I also have a 427 Cobra replica with an aluminum chassis.

same here,I get cancer or something bad,I'll use my trusty sawed off with buck shot.

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1999 w140, quit voting to old, and to old to fight, a god damned veteran

I don't not want to suffer that bad, probably.

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[SIGPIC] Diesel loving autocrossing grandpa Architect. 08 Dodge 3/4 ton with Cummins & six speed; I have had about 35 benzes. I have a 39 Studebaker Coupe Express pickup in which I have had installed a 617 turbo and a five speed manual.[SIGPIC]

..I also have a 427 Cobra replica with an aluminum chassis.

You might want to check out Habitat for Humanity. I have been building houses for them each Saturday for the last eighteen years. It is physical labor, gets you outside, and teaches you some carpentry skills. Really helps clear your head and there is a great deal of satisfaction at the end of the day in looking at something solid that you have helped to build.

You would be surprised how much physically better it makes you feel.

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Tyl604 is right! I struggled with dependence issues in my 30s. Part of my rehab the past 45 months has been getting involved with habitat for humanity. It creates powerful feelings of pride and joy. I love it! However I have never had to deal with grief this deep as you have oldsinner

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Current stable......
17' Rogue SV 70k
11’ Saab 9-5 NG 94k
10’ e550 4matic 185k

sold
02' e320 210k
00' e430 167k
01' e320 171k (regret sale)
91' 300d 2.5t 300k (sold to ecoofidaho)
79' 240d 177k (old yellow my avatar)
87' 300d 169k (junk but fast)
85' 300tdt 261k (RBM parts delivery)
85' 300dt 68k (one owner cream puff)
82' 240d 250k
84' 300dt 198k (sold to diesel don)
91' 190e 2.3 61k
88' 260e 140k

Yes as long as it is not classical depression. I have not seen a great upside with many medications. Few mental health workers have the time to really get into the problems. So just hand people a prescription. In fact it is amazing the percentage of the older population on mood modifying drugs today.

Of course none of us parents deal easily with the loss of one of our children. The damage I see that drug usage is responsible for is substantial. Perhaps the worse thing to attempt to deal with is if the individual involved has a dependent type personality. Your daughter would not wish you to feel the way you do currently either.

As we get older and I am 74. Death becomes less of an abstract concept. Yet if you keep going it is not a conscious thing on the mind. You just know it is inevitable.

Never fear suffering physically if you have a good doctor. Any good doctor knows his first responsibility is to not let this occur. Also give consideration to using advanced medicine where there is not enough reasonable upside left for the individual. You can also live too long. In my case if I was forced to just sit around I probably would preffer to be gone.

There are many things you can do to lift yourself up. First you have to get out of the slump. You have three grandchildren. Help them get going if they are not doing well at this time. You can even pick up a surrogate daughter if you wish. Our life experience can usually help younger generations. In fact it might have been the original design intent of aging.

If you start to believe in an upside there can be one in many cases. We also naturally have some of our individual concerns. One of mine is I do not think I could remain functioning well if I lived alone.

Just living day by day in my opinion may have an upside. Yesterday is gone and tomorrow is unknown. The wife and myself never lived this way with the exception of when we first got together to build something.

It was paycheck to paycheck at best then. Old habits die hard but in our cases it may be a good time to go back mentally to that period. Personally I believe you have to keep fairly active for the mind to survive anyways.

For years now I help children recover from environment issues and the resultant trauma they have experienced. It makes me feel good when the attempt is successful. I can assure you the effort does keep your mind very active. I have felt it really personally very rewarding. I in fact would have seriously disliked missing this involvement in my life on reflecting.

The four year old I am dealing with right now has a drug addicted mother. This child is almost unique. She has a mind like a twelve year old and is physically as big as an eight year old.

She is normalizing at a reasonable rate mentally from all the resultant behaviors created from the trauma she has experienced. She was mentally in so bad a state initially. I wondered if she could be helped at all. I guess what I am trying to convey is find something that suits you. Nothing ventured nothing gained is an old but still apt expression.

I don't use illegal drugs,or alcohol.I've had depression for 50 years.My spine is gone thank you,so I can't do any physical ****.

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1999 w140, quit voting to old, and to old to fight, a god damned veteran