Originally Posted by ramonajim

Trying to uncross my eyes from too many hours of contract writing yesterday, hoping the coffee that is so necessary for my head to clear doesn't churn my gut as much as it is threatening to.

We've officially exited one day at time mode and re-entered nod, smile, and roll with it mode.

Got Ma in to see Dr. Oh on Wednesday and learned that the MRI comparison done at the ER was looking at Saturday's scan vs. the last scan done at Frederick Memorial - back when they first found Ma's brain tumors. So the "no change in size" finding really should have been "they've grown back to the same size they were before the radiation treatments." In other words: 2 to 10 times bigger than they were two months ago (that MRI having been done elsewhere meant Fred Mem didn't see it Saturday in the ER).

"Partial seizures" (Saturday's twitching), increase in passive aggressive behavior, even less leg strength, balance is shot, confusion and memory issues - all getting more pronounced by the day - are all tied to the tumors pushing on various bits in Ma's head. She started another round of chemo yesterday - Doc Oh says there is a 50% chance this cocktail will affect the tumors.

Laid awake 'til just before the sun came up, holding Darling Wife while she quietly sobbed. Ma is really excited about Thanksgiving. Meridythe isn't sure she'll recognize us by then.