Facing the imminent prospects of spinal surgery, death has crossed my mind recently.
I concur, that having a child changes my attitude towards death. The thought of leaving her in a world without a father is very saddening to me. It's not my own death that bothers me, but the lack she would feel. I did not feel the same way before my daughter was born.

What I found interesting as I was signing all the consent forms for surgery which list death as a possible complication, was not that I was bothered by death itself, but that I was bothered by an unplanned, unexpected death.
The prospect of a well planned suicide in the face of pain does not seem to bother me as much as a death that catches me unawares. It could be because unexpected death was knocking at the door whereas I have no suicide plans at the moment.

I don't believe there is any future existence of the individual after death. At least, I see no evidence to believe such a thing occurs.

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1977 300d 70k--sold 08
1985 300TD 185k+
1984 307d 126k--sold 8/03
1985 409d 65k--sold 06
1984 300SD 315k--daughter's car
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