That stinks. hope you feel better and get a refreshed/renewed interest in working it through. Can't say much more except that I too feel your pain. All of my wrenching has been done by reading and doing...I should say reading and researching and then trying, trying, trying, trying......trying....and occaisionally succeeding. I consider myself to be pretty patient but sometimes I wish for shorter easier learning curves......To be able to work side by side with someone who's been there, done that is the ultimate...buyt alas not always possibel....Things I can do in my sleep now were hard the first time. Example "Sweat" fitting a copper plumbing fitting. I had two to do the first one took about 24 times and literally 3 or so hours. The second fitting took about 15 seconds......That wa about ten years ago but I remember both the frustration of the first fitting and the triumph of the second.....Now back to your scheduled ramblings.....