Part Three.
Mid-summer comes along. "The company can't afford to keep you at your salary level, we need you on the road" Response "Are you f***** stupid? We just went over this a month ago and we are just starting to get sales up because I came back and I'm making your car payment for you!" argument ensues and in the end I have to take a 2nd paycut (Now I'm at half of what I started the year at) The 3 times a week on G500 fuel economy 30 minute drives to do work at "The idiots" house (at times do TEN MINUTES of work...like I said, he can't plan ahead) are starting to take their toll and I'm hitting a new low in my depression. I barely used the G for my own uses but since I was paying for it...at least I could claim that it was mine. The company is still struggling at this point (There was another round of layoffs) so what does he decide to do? Waste some money by having a huge needless party which I had to help out with. After that night I finally get fed up and say that I won't be doing anymore work at his house. Fast forward to September, after a 1.5 year hiatus I decide to take a class to continue with my Business administration degree. It was a math class (Which I hate) but I figured continuing with school would make me feel better. It would have if not 3 days before the class started "the idiot" walks up to my desk and goes "I haven't made payments on my S600 and its going to be repoed, take the 600 to the dealer and bring me the G back have it here by the end of the day"
OMG WTF MFASS!!!!!!!!!afweiofaefajhoihjniljhbk
I go out of my way for people and I'm still being pushed around? Reluctantly I agree if and only if he agrees to keep it clean and drive it gently so that when he gets his girlfriends 4 door fixed he'll have something to drive (he has an SL but a daughter) I spent a lot of time getting that truck cleaned the first time around and spent even more time keeping it that way; I didn't want to do it again. (I've kept the G500 in my sig because I've been too embarrassed to take it down.) Because of all this my depression grows even worst. The company had a day at lake Compounce but I didn't go because I had no desires to be happy and instead spend the day working. Concentrating in school had become impossible as i'm living in a state of controlled rage. I stop going to class after two weeks because I wasn't getting anything done. $400, for nothing. (I still stay late at work on Mondays and Wednesdays because I don't want my parents to find out) He didn't bring the G to the office for a long while. The other day it was there....From the outside; wheels covered in break dust, finger prints on all the windows inside and out paint is filthy and scratched. Inside, food EVERYWHERE, coffee stains on the seats, ash on the dash, trash in every nook and cranny but worst of all, the smell. That pungent horrible smell of cigarettes and whatever else he smokes. I close the door and walk to my desk and start to think.
That's it, I can't take this anymore, I've lost everything, now I have nothing to look forward to because I know how he drives and I wouldn't even want that truck if you gave it to me. It is no longer a bargaining chip for him, I'd rather he pay me the hours that I'm owed. He continues to waste money while I suffer to pay off the companies bills, I don't know if I'll ever get paid back, I'm constantly lied to, I'm lieing to those around me about my situation. I'm alone with only one friend (Who God bless her if she wasn't around I could have never made it this far) I live in a constant state of anger and sadness. I've compromised and compromised; now I'm just a shell of my former self who stands for nothing.
I know my place in the world and that there are people out there suffering a lot more then me. In many ways I really have no right to complain. So go ahead guys, call me an idiot for ruining my life or give me advice. As bad as all this sounds I'm leaving out A LOT of details and many more stories of my pain and suffering. I could not bottle this up any longer and needed to get it out. Thank you to anyone who actually reads the whole thing.
The Short version-Things were going very well in my life for a while. It all came crashing down over the course of this year and I now have to fight to retrieve what was stolen from me which is a large amount by almost anyone's standards. It won't be an easy fight. I'm completely depressed over all of this, here's my current favorite song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XMbvcp480Y4