David,

Wow, you have to be an extremely strong person to put up a post so revealing, I commend you for that. It's funny looking back at my teenage years and realizing how the little things bothered me so much and how now I wish I could have it that easy. Your nearly at the end of that cycle and all the emossional imbalacne that goes along with it so hang in there, alot of what your experiencing is natural. It's how you handle your teenage years that shapes your future.

I have some advice that really helped me get through it. First I would say if your not persuing a higher education do so immediately. You may say that you don't need it, and it may be absolutely true but it's amazing how a piece of paper can open so many doors in your future.

Something else that is very important is to surround yourself with friends that aren't involved in drugs or going down the wrong path. This may serve as some guidance and support.

I would also stop abusing Ritalin cold turkey and get away from it all together. If you continue to take something like this you'll never allow your body to balance itself which can create further emossional imbalance.

My last bit of advice is to find a hobby or two that you truly enjoy. Maybe your car or a sport or skydiving. Find something that naturally increases the seratonin in your body and concentrate on that. Make sure it has satisfying results that will make you happy with your achievement whatever it may be. This really helped me even in the toughest times.

Hope this helps. Look forward to meeting you at the next GTG.

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Afshin

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