Wow... I woke up this morning thinking, regretting what I did!! But I'm glad I don't regret it now.
Just to add a few things.
I stopped being friends with 90% of the people I have been friends with through high school and everything! I no longer speak with many of my best friends. I more or less, dropped out of the circle. It was hard, but definitly helped me. More solititude was a good part of it, I think.
I am going to school. I just finished my second year at OCC. I havne't been taking full loads, but this summer I'm taking 4 classes! I need to make up for the half load I always took. No doubt I'm going to school.
But I think I'm overloading myself this summer............
Last year I did take a Career Planning class. It was an 8 week class, 2 hours a class, twice a week. I took all sorts of career tests, personality tests, to find out what I liked, and what seemed like I would like in life or whatever. I don't think it helped me much.... but I still have all the test results; I keep meaning to go review them. Hopefully doing that now will help me in some way. But I remember seeing all the results, and I was never THIS WAY OR THAT, I was never at the ends of the spectrum, I was almost always right in the middle. I suppose this is good in the sense that maybe I'm a well-rounded person. But I had trouble taking a lot of validity from them, because they didn't tell me much, except that I was "avg" on the scale/spectrum.
Anyway, all of your replies are very special, and each have a valuable message. Thanks everyone, and it's a little comforting to be reassure that I'm not the only one having these issues.