Wow David.
It took a tremendous amount of courage to post that, and I admire you for that. I am concerned though about your ADHD and Ritalin use.

I DO have ADD and I’m not saying you don’t have ADHD, But…….
You mentioned you were never properly diagnosed? What do you mean? Did a friend tell you that you have it or that Newport medical clinic? As far as I’m concerned a family medical center cannot diagnose ADD/ADHD. Depression and ADD/ADHD go hand in hand and have similar symptoms so depression can (and seems to be easily) misdiagnosed as ADD/ADHD.
David, seriously, get a professional diagnosis from a ADD/ADHD specialist ( or 2) if you haven’t. The PROPER treatment, (not necessarily Ritalin) can make a big difference.

ADD can make life practically unbearable. Trust me, I know.

Hang in there dude!

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