I really think I should be more upset; I'm certainly saddened and depressed, but also think this was an eventuality. The shock and confusion has certainly worn off. After a very nice weekend together I thought things were going well. Like I said, I had my growing doubts and was feeling increasingly trapped here and she was not receptive to moving away. I'm told when its the right person you just know. I had been questioning that as of recent. I'm much more independent and even tempered, and she's prone to emotional outburst that I was not good at dealing with. There was certainly chemistry, but we didn't share anything in common.
Its been highs and lows today. Sometimes I'm thinking this...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p6PkwyQ4JDA
...and most of the time pretty bummed.