"I see clouds. I suffer from depression.
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Have you tried st. Johns Wort? It's one of the things that has helped me alot. My wife can always tell if I'm not taking it. But I realize it doesn't work for everyone, especially those with a chronic problem. My brother has a chronic problem, and has run the list of what's out there. Nothing seems to last very long for him.
Actually I do have a bad problem with the "winter blues". I've about had enough of the long, endless grey winter days in this state. We're looking seriously into moving somewhere south next year.