I'm not a drinker -- not in the least, by self medicating, I mean, vitamins, and certain foods -- and yes, I like tofu.

I'm eating -- just not quite like I use to.

The blood is from my lungs from the cough -- it's an irrated cough, I keep drinking tons of fluids -- and that keeps the coughing down.

Deep down, I know I'll get through this, but wish I could at least hear from her. If nothing else to hope that she's not feeling like me right now.

Even if she found somebody else, I know that'll hurt a lot, but if she's really really happy -- in the end, I'm happy too.