I'm very sorry to hear about your loss, I was in a similar situation not too long ago, actually more then once. I can tell you right now that it does a great deal to talk, I unfortunately did not have anyone to talk to at the time, and belive it or not, it was my car that might have saved me from a lot of sufferring just by keeping my mind off of her. It still hurts, but at least now there are moments when I feel liberated from the pain that I remember feeling, and along with those came a feeling of hope, that there is something worth living for. So whatever you do hang in there, and as hard as it is, keep trying not to contact her, but the results of that can not be predicted.

Don't worry, as soon as things stop spinning, you'll see the light at the end of the tunnel once again.

xp

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1985 190E 2.3L - a constant project.