Astounding how much pain the human heart can withstand. I didn't realize this thread was in the past until the very end. I was reading it thinking when I got to the end I would tell you how time is the only thing that can ever heal the pain.
I went through it 6 years ago and when I think back on it I wonder if it really happened to me. Excrutiating emotional pain and a feeling of loss along with twisting in the wind. Now I look back and question why I let it affect me so much.
Glad you made it through the meat grinder, now go forward and enjoy the rest of your life!