The thing that causes my nads' to retreat into my body cavity up to my diaphram is putting my hands into something that's wiggling/crawling on it's own...like if you're climbing up the side of a hill and you reach up and grab the edge and you've got that "squishy feeling" between and on your fingers and it can be anything from pigeon crap to spiders?



(ok...i feel better now...)

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M. G. Burg
'10 - Dakota SXT - Daily Ride / ≈ 172.5K
.'76 - 450SLC - 107.024.12 / < .89.20 K
..'77 - 280E - 123.033.12 / > 128.20 K
...'67 - El Camino - 283ci / > 207.00 K
....'75 - Yamaha - 650XS / < 21.00 K
.....'87 - G20 Sportvan / > 206.00 K
......'85 - 4WINNS 160 I.O. / 140hp
.......'74 - Honda CT70 / Real 125
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“I didn’t really say everything I said.”
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . ~ Yogi Berra ~

I am a signed sealed and delivered mentally ill person.

Bipolar disorder, type II, hypomania.

I dont get the highs, but severe, I mean severe !! lows.

I have been hospitalized several times during these low periods.
I have spent months not getting out of bed.

The only way I can come close to explaining it is to imagine waking up in Hell one day, and you cant get out.

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Finally after 10 years of trying different combinations of medications a mixture started working !!!

The sun came back out, and the world was in color again, not just black and gray.

I have been lucky as can be, for the last 7 years.
I have not cycled down. (knock wood)

I cant sleep worth a darn, but that is OK, as long as I'm not sleeping in Hell.

I am also a recovering alcoholic, and spend lots of my time trying to help other people with simmilar problems.

I see everyting that I have gone thru as a gift now.
I would not have learned the lessons that I have without going thru what I did.
And I can use my experience to help others.
I have truly found some peace and contentment in life.

But I carry the fear that one day the black couds will come again.

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When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace.
Jimi Hendrix

If you don't mind me asking could you PM me the combination of drugs that worked? My niece has Bi-Polar depression and is having a really hard time with it. Maybe the same combo will help her too...

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1993 300E 2.8 185k miles
2006 Mustang Convertible 4.0 Eaton Supercharged

Sure, I would be glad to.

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When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace.
Jimi Hendrix

Many, (many) years ago, I was rock climbing with some friends, and came face-to-face with a LARGE snake on the same ledge as my finer hold. Bad day.

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1982 300SD " Wotan" ..On the road as of Jan 8, 2007 with Historic Tags