I am a signed sealed and delivered mentally ill person.

Bipolar disorder, type II, hypomania.

I dont get the highs, but severe, I mean severe !! lows.

I have been hospitalized several times during these low periods.
I have spent months not getting out of bed.

The only way I can come close to explaining it is to imagine waking up in Hell one day, and you cant get out.

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Finally after 10 years of trying different combinations of medications a mixture started working !!!

The sun came back out, and the world was in color again, not just black and gray.

I have been lucky as can be, for the last 7 years.
I have not cycled down. (knock wood)

I cant sleep worth a darn, but that is OK, as long as I'm not sleeping in Hell.

I am also a recovering alcoholic, and spend lots of my time trying to help other people with simmilar problems.

I see everyting that I have gone thru as a gift now.
I would not have learned the lessons that I have without going thru what I did.
And I can use my experience to help others.
I have truly found some peace and contentment in life.

But I carry the fear that one day the black couds will come again.

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When the power of love overcomes the love of power the world will know peace.
Jimi Hendrix